blowout | ⊱ PETER HALE

[ lydia is so very thankful this is a text and not a phone call, because if it was, peter would be able to hear how her fangs are practically scraping against each other. she's in the bathroom, a preemptive measure in case she did wolf out a bit (and lord knows she did once she got this text back) and she's not necessarily the happiest person. ]

He did. It's funny, you know, because I remember telling him that none of us were going to clean up his face when he fell asleep in, I don't now, potatoes and I told him to sleep. He's pack and shouldn't be like that.

And I know how much he likes me, if I said sleep, he'd at least try to do it. I'm not you, but, I have to wonder why he fell asleep in his lunch if I told him to go to sleep.

[ And then the clincher. ]

He smelled of a different pack. It was disgusting.

[ lydia, like stiles, is allowed a certain amount of leeway when it comes to keeping in line. they're his, solely his creations. and lydia, bless her, is going to be one to watch. none of that fighting her instincts nonsense the others still wallow in. ]

No, he shouldn't. Although if you're hoping to find out where I kept him so late, I'm going to have to disappoint you-- I had him home at a respectable hour, little mother. If Stiles had a sleepless night, it wasn't something I did.

[ quietly skipping over the fact that he certainly doesn't have to be there to weigh heavily on his packs' minds. ]

Now that is a problem. Dinner, tonight. All of you. Tell them soon, and make it clear that this isn't a request if you don't mind.

Edited 2012-07-07 20:59 (UTC)

[ lydia can kind of understand why they would fight things. jackson is an omega and after being an alpha at school for so long, the change is rather hard to make. scott, well, he's scott and that should explain everything. stiles just, well, she appreciates how he is, even if it makes him stupid. but lydia understands that the best way to actually achieve something as a werewolf is to embrace it. the sooner you know what you are and how to work it to your advantage, the sooner everything is magic. ]

I'd only be a little mother if I was an alpha female. The alpha female, actually, I'm just your beta worrying about one of the others. Did Stiles ever tell you that he gets excitable when he's taken outside for things at night? We all know he's naturally a little twitchy but it becomes so much worse when you do that. What did you even need him for?

[ oh she sees that skipping, alpha badtouch. she sees it. ]

I rescented him, don't worry. Smells like he practically bathed in me now.

...Pack meeting dinner? I- If they have plans that they can't get out of?

[ if one of his pack ever continues the cycle and takes him down, she'll be the one to strike the blow. he'll fight her if he can, of course, but there's an odd sort of pride in knowing someday, she could do it. ]

You are what I say you are, in this case. Little mother. And if it'll make you both happy, next time I'll call you for the tedious business of a few ritual words and some beard burn.

[ but acknowledging the skipping means they're his, even when he's not there-- win/win. ]

Good, good. Your instincts are always a delight, Lydia.

Then they can call me themselves and we'll discuss it, or adjust the time to work. I don't intend to be unreasonable, but you and Stiles made me wonder if perhaps I wasn't going about things wrong. I owe you both gratitude.

[ lydia sometimes dreams of the day that happens. in the beginning, she'll admit that even the idea that she was now a werewolf bothered her, but nowadays she finds that thinking of a time when she will be the alpha. she'll have this pack that peter's made under her control and it'll be giving everyone what they want correctly. it's a nice image, and one she takes particular pride in. ]

The implication there is creepy coming from you, alpha or not. And it would. He needs a break and while- beard burn. Did you just say beard burn?

[ not the point. so not even remotely the point (except it totally is.) ]

If you didn't know any better, you'd say I was a born wolf, wouldn't you? It was a bit selfish, I just hated the smell.

You know Jackson will be too scared to call you and Scott, well, he's Scott. I'll tell them. Tell them it's required and everything, unfortunately. Even for me and Stiles.

Was that- Peter, did you just say that you owe us a gratitude? An alpha thanking his betas. Why?

[ by the time when she's strong enough to make a real run at his head, peter likes to think she won't want to. even his little prodigy doesn't understand, not yet-- what it feels like to be part of the pack, not the loose framework they have now, but real pack. there's a reason most challenge come from outsiders, or madmen. ]

Which implications would those be? And yes, I did.

In some ways, yes. But in some ways, you may as well still be human. You're taking to it well, but don't assume you understand what it all means yet. I don't doubt you'll be one of the first to find out, but you aren't there yet.

Jackson, unlike the rest of you, understands how to say simply yes to his Alpha. And Scott-- well. I think you've hit the nail on the head with that one. As for the rest you can tell them, Ms. Martin, to call me with any issues and skip the editorializing.

I should remind you: don't push the limits more than I can accept, because we both don't want to return to a state of martial law within our pack. I'd like to be generous and work by coalition, but that doesn't make me any less your Alpha. Forgetting that would be a mistake.

I did, yes. As for why-- you did something I felt deserved thanks. That is generally why people say thank you in the first place.

[ there's a chance that it'll be like that. that lydia and the rest of them will feel like a real pack. that this is the family they want, the family they'll protect (stiles and her already know that they need to protect the others). but for now, lydia thinks she can disconnect herself enough from peter, her alpha to kill him when the time is right. ]

I'm the only female in the pack, Peter.

[ she lets the sentence sit there on its own and if he could hear her, her fangs are scraping against each other once again. in annoyance, perhaps. to make it any clearer bothers her so she'll let him draw the conclusion himself. ]

I'll be the first. Even Stiles won't be able to figure out what it means before I do.

I'll tell them. I promise. And any issues will be dealt with. I hardly need to bother you with teenage issues, do I?

I can't forget that you're my alpha. But a good beta knows how to push limits. You like Stiles and I because of it. I worry for Stiles and what he does because of it. No need for the martial law, we'll be good.

You're welcome, then, even if I'm hazy on what I did to earn such gratitude from my alpha.

[ like he said-- none of them understand, not yet. ]

For now, yes.

We'll see. You're brilliant, but understanding this requires something more than brains. It's more about the viscera, less the higher consciousness. We'll see how you take to it.

My pack should bother me with anything they want. Your problems are my problems, now.

I would settle for less contentious, but good will do in the meantime. And I like Mr. Stilinski and yourself for many reasons, limit pushing not quite chief among them.

In your words? Limit pushing.

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Do I get a hand in choosing the others?

[ she's not talking about allison. she knows that one is a given for and if she says turn her, peter will do it. ]

Are you telling me that you don't think I can? That I'll fall short?

[ it sounds needier than lydia ever does sound because it angers her to have peter think she can't understand this. she wants to and she knows that she will. eventually. ]

You're older, you don't need to know how Scott is failing Chem or how someone else is having an issue that we can fix on our own because it's a normal teenage thing.

...It's what I know how to do best, Peter. You don't need to thank me for something that comes naturally.

Of course. I can't say there won't be a time that answer will have to change, but until that day yes.

[ oh, he's just waiting. it's good he spared her, really, that he had enough control to make himself stop. this would all be even harder with her death on his list of misdeeds as compiled by the pack. ]

Of course not. But this is one area where the last leap requires turning off that amazing brain of yours. This is one thing you can't work around or force.

[ she'll get it, all right; but she'll get it wrong first, more likely. ]

I don't entirely agree, but I'm not about to force you all to check in like a bad Leave it to Beaver remake. I hope one day you'll want to come to me with those things, though.

But I want to.

I don't think that day will ever come. You did say I'm your little mother. Of course, it is your decision as alpha, isn't it.

[ if he hadn't lydia would have made sure to toss several molotov cocktails at him of her own making. allison is her best friend and to take that away from her would ensure that even scott couldn't rival her anger. ]

Completely turning it off? As in going to a primal state?

[ she's asking because if that's the case she may realize that it'll be hard. she knows turning off her mind completely is something she hasn't entirely mastered the art of. ]

By that time, I think we'll be in college. It's natural for teenagers to hide things.

Are you sure you want my ego to get a boost like that?

Edited (thanks enter button. i like you too.) 2012-07-14 03:13 (UTC)

⊱ PETER HALE

TEXT ♚ I JUST WANTED IT OKAY.

TEXT ♚ I KIND OF LOVE THIS VERSE MORE THAN ANYTHING u g h lydia yeees.

TEXT ♚ I FEEL LIKE I SHOULDN'T AND YET. this is why she's an a w e s o m e beta

TEXT ♚ we just enjoy the godawful ride now i guess

TEXT ♚ there are far worse rides to be on, let's be real.

TEXT ♚ truths

TEXT ♚ and there is a reason these are yolo threads.

TEXT ♚ because they are bad and we should p feel guilty?

TEXT ♚ but feeling guilty is boring?

TEXT ♚ truths ngl

TEXT ♚ one day i'll try to feel bad. maybe.